{"id":1162,"date":"2015-02-20T16:54:17","date_gmt":"2015-02-21T00:54:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.wordsmithwisdom.com\/?p=1162"},"modified":"2015-02-20T16:54:17","modified_gmt":"2015-02-21T00:54:17","slug":"the-edict-of-depression","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.wordsmithwisdom.com\/?p=1162","title":{"rendered":"The Edict Of Depression"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 The Edict Of Depression<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Saturday and Sunday has blurred into one.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I spent time in a bar, walking the streets,<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

or in my small, one room flat, drinking rum.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I hardly remember what I had to eat.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I cannot recall the point where I became<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

the person who lives here in this existence.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Not sending Christmas or birthday cards is lame.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I become exhausted instead of tired, without resistance.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Things rarely start & stop at identifiable points.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Life tends to shade from one state to another.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

To evolve, then dissolve, to grow like moving joints,<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

then fade & fall away—- like all others.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Books and poems with their words hide this.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

With their quantized approach to reality.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

With their pretence that emotional starts & stops exist.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

That you can be in one state, then another, callously<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

refers to a life that is in one continual flux.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Yet, it all blends together, like a mental storm.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Nothing stays with me, except my tortured gut.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

This is a perpetual hell into which I was born.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Alcohol just rounds off the sharp edges.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Things roll along easier when one is blotto.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I never give money or make any pledges.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Just to half-heartedly \u2018 maintain,\u2019 is my motto.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Nothing to look forward to. The past is a blur.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I live in an existence that is like a fog.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Don\u2019t ask me where I\u2019m going, I\u2019m not sure.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I pass out each night and sleep like a log.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

In the morning, nothing has changed.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

No one is concerned.— No one cares.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

I guess there is no one else to blame.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Loneliness is a state that is impossible to share.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

———————————————R. W. Johnson—–(2015)<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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